Driven
by unlikely rewards and unspeakable motivation
and a deep,
dark competitive streak
few
see
or recognize or
would ever imagine, (but she’s so sweet, they think)
I return
to tackle
old demons and excess calories and
efficient fat-blasting
and “just wanna be healthy and set a good example for my kids…” but not
buy into the hype
and I trail off,
distracted by looking at who is there
who was there last time I was here
who looks better,
who now looks worse.
I search for faster music
deeper burn
more muscle groups to use
food as fuel
hair up
who cares about make up?
beauty is pain
no pain, no gain
it’s better to look good than to feel good
sweat dripping in my eyes,
keep going keep going keep on almost there…
and I try not to think about how
today is nothing more
than day two.
507 calories, 3 miles in 39 minutes.
206 days until Avon Walk for Breast Cancer
Good luck.
By: purefnevyl on April 1, 2008
at 9:30 pm
It seems to be a time of change for many. I hope you find the right path for you.
By: Brian on April 2, 2008
at 7:20 am
it certainly seems like you have the right motivations in order… this was a very personal piece… and the more i read it,, the more i feel your desire burning thru to the surface…
By: paisley on April 2, 2008
at 8:27 am
this was very good, i almost started sweating reading it:) i wihs i could get really motivated to lose the 20 i’ve gained.
By: leigh lear on April 2, 2008
at 12:02 pm
You’re awesome.
By: Red on April 2, 2008
at 10:30 pm
Such a good representation of one’s thoughts at the gym. I love its honesty. So glad to hear you’re going through the process, the much needed process to heal, sweating it all out, one drop at a time.
kim
PS. So cool that you’re doing the walk.
By: krkbaker on April 3, 2008
at 6:49 pm